So, who are you? Who does God think you are? What does he see that you don’t see? Why on this earth would God even bother with me? These are a few questions I’ve asked myself so many times before. I’m sure you have too.
This past week, I’ve been so frustrated with who I am and feeling that I should be doing more, not just for God but for my family, my friends, perhaps even for me at times. I have felt that I should perhaps fight more, stand up for me, for others for stuff that doesn’t seem write at all. But instead of doing this, I chose to pray and keep quiet. Hold myself in and my tongue, most times I just want peace. Then just after really getting angry with myself for not fighting, I read in James 1:19-21 “My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires.” WOW! V21 “Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and the evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the word planted in you, which can save you.” WOW again! James 3:17 says, “But the wisdom that comes from Heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere.” V18 says, “Peacemakers who sow in peace reap a harvest of righteousness.” Well you could have blown me over with a feather.
The very thing I’ve complained about this past week is the very thing God holds as righteousness, now that is not me believe me….. any good in me comes from God alone, I cannot even begin to boast in that, I learn’t that a very long time ago, I’m rotten to the core, if it wasn’t for what God has done in my life, I know where I’d be, but it made me realize that I shouldn’t be so set on being something God hasn’t made me to be. I’m a peace-maker! Don’t get me wrong, I hate injustice and that’s a good thing, but I choose most of the time to let God deal with that, as we cannot change anyone. Only God can change the heart of man. Lets face it, He’s much better in doing that anyway then what we are.
And the times that I do say something, well I trust God helps me with that, as this is totally not in my nature. I am who God is making me to be….because everyday He shows me new things and teaches me, the key is to always be ready to listen and rather get a God perspective than my own.
Rather accept who God made you to be!
Tina